Today is Christmas Day, I'm just not feeling very christmas at the min, not havin you here waking me up to open your presents dosent feel the same I know I'll see you both in a little while but it hurts inside for not to be here at home where you should both be. Yes I canceled Christmas in my house be couse it isn't the same, I didn't want to have Christmas without you.

so im going through a lot at the min and its christmas, the time for familys but for thoses that know mine has been ripped apart by the higher powers i have no controll over this i know im partly to blame but there is also other aspects that i couldnt control, i miss my girls so much they are my life they are what i live and breath for, all i want is them home with me, but due to stress that have been brought on and made worse by certain people tring to run my life, im slowly picking upi the pices as i hit rock bottom and didnt want to be around anymore i had thoughts i never even dreamed off.

i have people around me that didnt even know how low i really went, i just came crashing down no one around me know untill it was to late, these people are people that i can never forget and never get over this wthout them, i know i have a lot to do and a lnog road to go down, but know one thing i neer wanted any off this to happen,

trkh nikkie

Ok this is my blog don't really know where to start as there is so much going on in my life at the minute my life seems to have gone on a downward sprille, I'm crumbling on the inside I have friends and other people that just wanna stab me in the back I have few friends I can trust anymore,